"AND THEN I WOKE UP"

And then I woke up and the world smiled gently at my forgetfulness.

And then I woke up and I remembered that I had never been asleep.

And then I woke up and my lonliness enfolded me like the warmest embrace of the mother herself.

And then I woke up and I remembered I was just a feather of a prayer, floating on the sweet currents of god's very own breath.

And then I woke up and found myself being eternally danced by the stillness.

And then I woke up and I was the space where the warm, salty tear meets the face.

And then I woke up and I could not fly, for I WAS the sky!

And then I woke up and the question "why" scattered thru infinity like a flock of luminous butterflies.

Melting in the heat
of two bodies
that will never meet.
Sadisticly savoring
desire's unwavering suck.
Through infinity,
she lures me.
Swallows me. Births me.
In and out. In.
And out.
Sacred human breath of god.
I felt so forbidden,
inching slowly
into our unified depth.
Falling effortlessly,
Through invisible walls,
made of time,
wounded hearts,
inverse divine.
Is it okay? To feel this way?
But I cannot close,
before our love that glows. Radiates.
Illuminates this dream,
invoked by a force unseen.
Spiraling forever in our eyes.
Falling. Falling together,
through this life that never dies.
Just pulses, throbs, cosmic thrusts,
Waves, moans, sighs,
extending through me-
YES, I want to
wrap you
in my thighs.
Surrender to this animal inside.
Scratch and purr.
Irresistible feline,
predator by design.
Playful. Coy. Aloof.
Just take me from behind!
Oh, never mind.
We can't.
But it's more fun this way...
Melting in the heat,
of two bodies
that will never meet.

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How can I be falling?
I'm just sitting on my bed.
I'm falling through the thoughts
that are racing through my head.
Every sound is like a needle,
Piercing my awareness.

Hungrily I suck in breath,
How much longer can I bear this?
The third dimension,
Oozing with illusion.
A dream that seems
like a ball of yarn,
entangled in confusion.
But none the less, I play...
Oh, the tone of all my poems lately...
I'm feeling a little tortured,
you could say...
Oh, well. I'll just let it be.
Just let it bleed.
Until a scab is formed.
Before I took this oath,
I'm sure that I was warned.
No big deal. I have eternity to heal.
Squeal with delight.
Turn on a dime, paralyze in fright.
Swinging little pendulum of God.
Some day I will stand still,
in the middle, where the peace abides...
But for now I choose to take a ride.
I hate it. I love it. I hate it, love it, too.
Stimulation, stimulation! Give me more!
Just let my mind run wild,
until I trip on a hidden fear.
In the dark.
Awaken the sleeping child-
she cries out in loneliness.
Remember all those times?...
when I was left alone at home...
waiting for my mother,
crawling deep inside my head,
buried by the covers of my bed...
with no concept of forever,
or tomorrow, or today...
What did all that pain leave me with?
Where's the pay-off?
Where's the gift?
I guess that I am here.
To see and feel.
Express, inspire and love.
In spite of yesterday's tomorrows.
The NOW is all I need.
This silence that I breathe.
I revere the joyous sorrow.
I revere my beating heart.
This poem was supposed to be over,
but I don't wanna let it go,
I just wanna ride the flow.
Of words. Of thoughts. Of feelings.
To a safer home.
There's too much space around me.
I need a tighter boundary.
Like the womb, like being breast fed. Like passion.
No wonder I just wanna make love to everyone,
all the time.
Except I'm exaggerating, but you don't mind,
you know what I mean.
You feel the same I bet...
Inside we're all lovers,
whispering secrets of the heart,
waiting to be discovered by some other one...
who doesn't exist, except in our mind.
But it's our truest self, we're aching to find.
I sigh as I sink into life of the blind,
but the voice of my soul screams,
"BABE, YOU'RE DIVINE!!!